Everything I thought I knew, turns out I don't know Jack shit.
I want to go on record that I really was fighting for something I believed in. I was honestly trying to do some good. I really was. I felt in my heart that I was doing the right thing. But in light of recent events, when Athena Parker and STGRB turned on me, and then she going behind my back and sending trusted emails to people to try and get others to hate me? I realized something .... I realized that Athena Parker and STGRB were fakes.
I also realized that we're all bullies. I mean, if you're not fighting for a good cause, then you're bullying. I also realized this morning that for the majority of people involved with this are really just a lot of people with nothing but time on their hands. How I got suckered into this madness, I will never know. But one thing is for sure, there is no cause anymore to fight for. Everybody seems to be in it for their own reason and that reason isn't a noble one, but a self serving one.
If I have learned anything this past year with The Looking Glass, it's that anyone you trust on the internet, is anyone who will have a hidden agenda and is anyone not to be trusted.
The way Athena, WIN, and STGRB and other people have turned tells me that they were not the people I thought them to be. And this cause never did exist.
I don't know if Melissa Douthit and Athena Parker are the same person, and to tell you the truth, I don't care. As long as she was fighting for a good cause, that was all that mattered. But if they are the same person, then that would mean she wasn't fighting for a noble cause, she was fighting for her own agenda. And that would be sad. More than that, it would be pathetic.
The bullies? Well, they are pathetic. We already know that. But at least they are honest about who and what they are and what they stand for. But all of this hiding behind socks and shit, it's ten year old stuff. It's childish, and so very adolescent.
We're all a bunch of nuts with way too much time on our hands and we all belong to the same asylum. Myself included.
Today, I am finally going to leave the asylum, and I am taking The Glass with me. I am pulling out of the fight because I realized something these past days and that there is no fight anymore. And that is the truth people. This whole thing now rings more like a complete and total sham. All of it.
This whole thing is nothing more than to give those who have nothing better to do - something to do with their lives because their life is empty.
Take whatever they say with a grain of salt. After all, it's just the internet. But more importantly, take it at face value.
The Looking Glass will be one year old come February 1st of 2013. For my one year anniversary, I will be shutting down The Glass. I will delete it.
So take your screenshots now, and go to your pathetic little blogs and website and groups and all that shit and run with it. Celebrate it, cry, whatever. I don't care. It doesn't matter anymore. Because quite frankly, none of you matter anymore because none of you care about doing what is good and right, you all have your own little agenda's. Every last one of you. You are all selfish and hateful. You all have too much time on your hands. You all need some fucking help. You're all mental.
The only cure for it is to get up and go out and get a life. This is what I am doing. So if you want to keep writing your filth, and turning on each other, and back stabbing one another, and bullying one another, and playing these kindergarten games on the internet, then go ahead. I feel nothing but pity for you.
I got pulled in, but I am pulling myself out.
I am also going to give Anne Rice some very good advice. Stay out of it. There is no cause. Don't do it. Don't let these whack jobs from both sides pull you into their madness like they pulled me in. Forget everything I ever said to you Ms. Rice, it's not worth it. There is no cause. There's just a bunch of people who have nothing better to do. I know your heart might be in the right place, Ms. Rice, but all of these people, the so called good and the bad, they have no cause outside of their own personal agenda. They are all just bitter people with hate and deceit in their hearts and if you get sucked in by any of them, they will beat you the fuck down. All of them! They will drain the life force from your soul. They are all mentally ill individuals who live for only one thing ..... to get online and rip someone a new asshole. And when their choices begin to dwindle, they will turn on you to and rip you a new one. Just because they can. Just because they have a computer. Just because they all have hate in their hearts. The bad ones, the good ones, trust me Ms. Rice, on the internet, you can't tell them apart. So no, don't get involved and and don't try to help them, they don't want it. All they want from both sides is just to fight with each other. That's it.
So save yourself Anne Rice, do what I am going to finally do and run, run for your very life. Run hard. Run fast. Do not look back. Just run.
To Athena, STGRB, WIN, and to all the rest of you, good ones and bad, seek help. Seriously, seek some fucking help.
As for my current friendships with anyone, as long as you never mention this garbage to me anymore after The Glass has been deleted, we can still be friends if you want. But if you ever mention any of this again to me on any level after Feb. 1st, I will delete our friendship. No one is excluded from it. When The Glass comes down, I will be officially done with it. And the biggest reason of all is because, I don't trust any of you anymore. Period!
So we will either have a nice normal internet friendship that has nothing to do with some fake cause or we will have no relationship. That's the way it's going to be. I will never mention The Glass ever again after Feb 1st and I will not be friends with anyone who mentions it either. Or STGRB or anything that has to do with fake garbage and the fake people from both sides.
Fighting this fight has brought out the best in me and the worst. But in the end, it was the worst of other people that led me to realize that all of this was a sham. Shame on every single one of you. More than that, shame on me for every having trusted people who simply can't be trusted while hiding behind fake names.
To those who may have felt like I and that really and truly believed there was a good cause to fight for, I advise you to get out ASAP as well. Just cut the cord. Take your losses and walk away from the crazy table.
So you all have fun filling the lonely hours of your day with all this hate, fighting, scheming, back-stabbing, and ultimately, a colossal waste of time all you like. Do it to your hearts content. because in the end .... that's all it really is. It's all it ever was and all it ever will be. I'm just glad that I finally saw it for what it really is. I guess that is something I can thank Athena Parker for. She has shown me who and what she really is .... and that is .... that she is nothing but a fake. And if she is a fake, then so is STGRB. Then so is all of it.
I just hope that all of you will allow peace and love back into your hearts again someday. It would be tragic if it never existed inside of you at some point. Even more tragic if you never let it back in.
I just hope that all of you will allow peace and love back into your hearts again someday. It would be tragic if it never existed inside of you at some point. Even more tragic if you never let it back in.
Update:
I've already been hit with some emails all asking the same question, basically, so I will answer that question here. Do I believe that Melissa and Athena are the same person? .... The answer? .... Yes, I do. Take it for what it's worth.
I'm Carroll Bryant .... and this was The Looking Glass.
Let the countdown begin.
You guys do realize that even when I take down The Glass, all of the posts will still be cached through Google and still be made available to be read, right?
ReplyDeleteWell, you do now.
Remember, once it's on the internet, it's there for life. It never really does go away. It can still be accessed.
Oh, one more thing, anyone interested in the "Athena Emails", you know how to contact me.
Also, I may hand pick some of the posts from The Glass to "repost" on my other blog.
ReplyDeleteIf you were / are an innocent bystander who was somehow worked into a post and you do not wish for me to possibly end up picking that post to repost, contact me by email and let me know. I could either decide no tto repost it, or take you out of it if I do repost it. But again, I don't know how many of them I will select if I select any. But I am giving notice that the option is on the table.
It would seem there is a problem with deleting The Glass. I had a couple people contact me today who saw this announcement. They were a little upset. After talking with them, I then called my mother to get her take on it. Was I in for a shocker.
ReplyDeleteThe thing is, there are other people invested in this blog. When I would take off to California, I had people monitor the comments. I also had people who did some research for me. It turns out, by me involving others, I had to consider their feelings when it comes to taking down The Glass. Or so that's what mother says.
The argument is this: If I take down The Glass, the bully stuff will still be there for others to see. This blog was to address those accusations by the bullies. And it's not like they simply say they hate me or my books, but they make some very horrible accusations that are criminal or otherwise despicable. According to my mother, this is not just an insult to me, but to her too, and how she raised me. She never raised me to be like that and these people are doing more than expressing their opinion towards me, they are attacking my character. And while deleting this blog will cache everything, and archive these posts to the back end of the internet pages, the stuff these bullies wrote will still show up on the front pages, and with The Glass gone, there would no longer be a "defense" to those posts. The two hate blogs in my honor would still be there as well. Basically, all my evidence to counter those accusations would be gone as well.
My mother thinks, because others in my friends and family circle have some kind of emotional investment in The Glass, that I should take a vote from those people and give them a say so in whether The Glass is shut down or stays up. I suppose she is right. And while she is all for me to never post again here, and she always was against me trying to help others, she cast the first vote, and she voted for me to leave it up. (That was the shocker) I then cast the second vote, to shut it down. I called my two friends up and they each voted for me to keep it up. I have seven more people to contact. I've decided to leave it to a vote. With 11 people total involved, I need at least six total votes to shut it down. The total now is 3-1 to keep it up.
I know it's basically my blog. I can do what I want with it, but again, I did get others involved and they may have a say about its fate. I already deleted the pages which now, I kind of regret. But my mother is right. I need to consider the others feelings on the matter. And that's what I'm going to do. I'll get back right here in this comment section to update everyone on the rest of the voting.
And one more thing ... don't comment on my other blog to anything here. I shut the comments down for a reason. That reason is because there is nothing more to say about the posts. Respect it. Thanks. (Most of the comments appear to be coming from the bullies) Go figure.