Consider this: These promises were made in August/September of 2011. And broken by October / November of the same year. I did not post my list until July of 2012. And I didn’t post the list to just “get back” at these people. The truth is, I would have never made that post if it weren’t for one small thing. That Jude wouldn’t have “stalked” me on one of my shared blogs. (Which I talk about here in this post called Emails With Jude )
The fact is, I had let it go. I was moving on. Then Jude befriended my blog partner just so she could “sneak” onto our shared blog under the guise of “design” issues just so she could get back at me for blocking her months earlier from emailing me by leaving links to “her” (Jude’s) blogs. She also requested that my friend “not” tell me about it. To keep their little “friendship” a secret.
I see. (And I’m the stalker?)
After the “BULLY” attack on
me on the website, Goodreads.com, several people took to their trusty blogs to
write about the incident. Just a word of note: Not one of them ever contacted
me for “my side” of the story. Thus, without proof or evidence, they went ahead
and took the liberty to write about my incident based on “Jude Henderson’s”
side of everything. (We’ll be getting to her soon enough. Doesn’t the
anticipation of it all drive you nuts? LOL)
Anyhow, we are going to take
a look at some more “irresponsible” reporting of a story by amateur bloggers
and why they should NOT give up their day jobs. This inside look will raise the
question: Are these people bullies? Bully supporters? Or are they just trying
to rustle up some fame for themselves? Or could it be they just wanted to
defend their friend?
Special note: I consider myself an amateur blogger too, so you know … but before I would rush to “judgment” on anybody, even I would know to try and get the other person’s side of a personal relationship story. Even I know the golden rule of “He Said, She Said”. To this date: None of these people have ever contacted me in an attempt to get that other side. The result? Irresponsible reporting.
I understand that when it’s a girl versus a guy - It’s easy to side with the girl. To assume “she” was the victim of stalking, bullying and harassment. But as we will see by Jude’s own words and actions, she was the one stalking, bullying and harassing me. She was the one who had a “crush” on me. All I ever wanted was friendship.
So let’s just go to this issue first, people blogging about me irresponsibly. I will start it out with this screenshot at bookish, (Evie Seo) who did a post about me then removed it. Permanently? I don’t know.
For whatever reason, it is
gone now. Maybe it will make another appearance later. Who knows?
Anyhow, I assure you, it
wasn’t kind. Nor are the ones I will be showing you later. While I do
appreciate Bookish for taking it down, I condemn her for ever having posted it
in the first place. But I sure would like to know why she took it down.
Another blogger who took
initiative to get themselves involved and post some irresponsible words and
very misleading information was “The Runaway Pen”. (I see the irony of her blog
title)
She (T.L. Shreffler) starts her post out
hypocritically to begin with, stating: “I try to avoid drama at all costs.” -
Really? Is this why you decided to “write’ a post about someone you don’t even
know to begin with? To avoid “drama”? And someone you don’t know anything
about? You know, to “avoid” drama?
Moving on ……
Then she proceeds to say:
“But as I cruised through my favorite book blogs this morning, I ran across a
“change in reviewing policy” by Bookish. (How coincidental?) She then says:
“Basically this “guy” Carroll Bryant (or is it a girl? Still confused) sent out
a bunch of books expecting reviews. S/he claimed the books didn’t get reviewed
as promised several after several months of waiting. S/he then went crazy and
sent an evil, nasty email to a teenage book blogger telling her to go kill
herself and other mean things. You can read more about it on Evie’s “Bookish”
blog.” You can read it here for yourself on this screenshot.
First of all, “The Runaway
pen”, I did not “send” out a bunch of books “expecting” reviews on a whim. I
don’t practice that kind of behavior. You will be hard pressed to find anyone
to whom I ever “asked” for them to review any of my books. These people
“approached” me. There is a big difference. When YOU approach someone and
“make” them a deal, and that other person holds up their end of the bargain,
then YOU best damn well hold up your end also. (I also like how us authors are
expected to be “professional” where-as these bloggers feel like they don’t have
to be. Word up: If you expect others to be professional, try being one
yourself.)
I did not go crazy with an
evil email over any of these people “stealing” from me. That email in which
Jude showed everyone is an email - more likely - from when she used her threats
of “suicide” once too many times towards me in our long standing friendship,
and thousands of emails we sent back and forth. While I have never seen this
email, I can’t even rightly say I even wrote it. But I do recall once when she
threatened to kill herself (yet again)
when I mentioned that I was intending to block her from emailing me once. When
she sent me that “I’m gonna kill myself” email, I pretty much got angry with
her. I guess I should have been more understanding, but there is only so many
“threats” of suicide one can take from somebody and I just grew weary of it and
simply put, called her bluff. Obviously, she didn’t go through with it.
Obviously, it was a bluff. Sometimes, you have to use tough love with some
people and that was my “tough” love response to her: To “go ahead and kill
herself” if that’s what she wanted to do. But again, I was very angry about it
because I cared about her deeply at that time as a friend, and it hurt me
deeply that she would say something like that (again!) after I had repeatedly
told her how much it hurt me when she would say it. She used that threat of
suicide as weapon to try and get me to behave the way she wanted me to behave.
Hence: One of the reasons why I wanted to block her from emailing me.
So “The Runaway Pen” - You
got it so wrong! But that’s what happens when you decide to join in with the
drama, (you claim you don’t want to be a part of in the first place -
LIAR!) and form alliances with bullies
and haters.
The she goes on to make a
little list of her own. Rules for “authors” I imagine. Just like a bully, she
wants to put “authors” in their place. First of all, who the hell is she to
give anyone advice? She can’t even get a story straight. Anyhow, here is the
screenshot.
Here is the list: 1) Not
begging for reviews like a starving orphan. - (Well, first of all Evie, I don’t
beg for reviews period!)
2) Not responding to bad
reviews like a rabid animal. (Secondly, Evie, I never responded to a “bad”
review.)
3) Not “making” a ridiculous
list of book bloggers who “don’t do their job” - (You mean, like your
ridiculous list of advice for Indie authors?) And yes, I stand behind the list.
I think us authors owe it to one another to “out” the ones who steal from us.
Some authors can’t afford to be “taken” by bad reviewers. They can’t afford to
just give away free reads (books) and get nothing in return. Perhaps if YOU and
YOUR bully friends were to learn this, you would understand why some authors
have a problem with reviewers. If you’re going to deal with “professionals”
then you might want to try and act like one in return.
4) Not initiating or
instigating internet drama. (Like when you and your bully pals at “Badly
behaving Authors” group on Goodreads and Amazon Forum Boards do? And oh, by
posting your stupid, irresponsible and misleading blog post?) Wait! What am I
saying? You already stated that you didn’t want to be a part of the drama.
Okay, here is a
question: How do these self - proclaimed
“amateur” bloggers come up with the nerve to even start giving advice to
authors about anything? And why would anyone in their right mind even listen to
them? That’s what I would like to know. For self-proclaimed amateurs, they sure
do offer up a lot of professional advice.
I’ll let you people decide.
But it is apparent that Evie got all of her “knowledge” from reading a blog,
and not from any actual effort on her part to get the ‘real” story or the
truth. Yeah, I agree, AMATUERISH! But that’s we are in the end, aren’t we? Just
a bunch of amateur bloggers. (Myself included) However, at least I try to get
the truth through screenshots and links. And present them as evidence. (Like I
am doing now.) Wouldn’t it be good if these bullies did the same?
Moving on ….
Then “Book Goggles” gets into
the action. She tries to be neutral, but if she really wanted to write
something about the issue, she would have contacted me to get my side of it.
But did she? No! That would be too difficult. To actually have to consult with
someone who was a victim of a bully attack and get their side of it all. Like I
said, she “tries” to come off as neutral. She claims I was mad or something. I
was never mad at these reviewers, just very disappointed that they made me an
offer then backed out just because of their friend, Jude. I was also just
bewildered by the unsuspecting attack against me that was organized for a few
days in advance. And how do I know this? Because I posted my “List” blog on GR
on a Monday and hardly got any views (About 35) until that following Friday, at
around 3:30 pm. From there, and up until I got banned on that Sunday afternoon,
I had over 75,000 views and over 1000 comments. It took me and two friends to
sign in on my account and start deleting it all. (Well, at least we know these
bullies don’t stay in their spaces. But hell, we all knew that already, didn’t
we?)
I even posted a comment where
in it, I made myself available for her to ask me questions to get the real
truth. Did she? I’ll let you figure that one out. Here is the shot.
And then someone with the
blog “The Rex Files” decides to make themselves a name off of me. And like the
rest of them, gets the story completely inaccurate. (While trying to be neutral)
I like when these bullies “attempt” in being neutral. But you can read them
like a …. book?
His blog subtitle reads: “A
sounding board for my forays into writing speculative fiction” Well Rex, you
got that right. Your “article” about me was about as fiction as it gets. One
look at his 33 members list might tell the truth as to why he wanted to throw
in his two cents. (And two cents is about all his story is worth, if that.)
He mentions that I was
working hard to build my “standing” on Goodreads. That’s right, Rex, I was. I
was very active. I did have a lot of fans in a very short amount of time. But
you use page eight of “Lucy’s” story about being “stalked” as your so called
“evidence” of what went down? Really? You take the word of bullies and liars
and presto! You got your truth? And from Absolute Write? The biggest
bully/lying organization on the internet? Really?
Okay then …..
Anyhow, I will use those very
same comments to prove my side of it.
I didn’t post several blogs
about reviewers stealing from me, Rex, I wrote one. Last time I checked, one
was not “several”. Anyhow, another of your ’inaccuracies’ is when you mention
that I gathered up some supporters. I never did any such thing. And I certainly
didn’t gather up anyone at STGRB because at
that time, I didn’t know who they were. And nobody “advised” me I was
going about it the incorrect way. So far, your “evidence” gathering of the
truth sucks dude.
And then I see you got
“Jude’s” side of the story, but not mine? A little one-sided wouldn’t you say?
And it wasn’t false “photo’s” (plural) either. It was just one photo.
(Singular) But I already explained about that. And she used the word smitten?
Well, if her only reason for being my friend in the beginning was because of
that photo, seems to me Jude is a little shallow. Agreed? (But we’ll continue
with Jude later in this post)
You used the word “courted”
her. Really? Did she tell you that? Your reliable source? I wouldn’t call being
friends with someone counts as “courting”, but way to spin it there Rex. (Like
I said, they “try” to come off neutral.)
I flew to Mexico and she
refused me? Did she say that to you? Well, had you bothered to ask me, you
would find out that “she” didn’t refuse me at all. But how would you know this?
Look at your “source”. By the way, I didn’t fly to Mexico, I flew to
California.
I stalked and harassed her?
Again, she told you this? So I guess her posting shit up in her group on
Goodreads first doesn’t count as harassing me? And I guess her befriending my
friend and sweet talking my friend to make her an admin on one of our shared
blogs doesn’t constitute as “stalking”? It seems to me she says a lot without
proof where as I can show you proof of it being the other way around. Now, who
do you think people will believe? You, her and all her bully friends who have
no proof, or me, with the proof? Yeah, think about that one Rex.
Then I see you mention that
she did post images of emails she claims I sent. However, she posted them
before the weekend of my attack. When the people came to attack me that
weekend, they were mentioning something about those emails. So before I got
banned, she had already posted those emails. I bet she never posted the emails
she sent in response or prior did she? I bet she didn’t post the whole entire
conversation between us, did she? Of course not, that would put everything in
too much of a context. Do you see the manipulation of the truth process here
folks?
I never said my list was
posted under false pretense. That is an outright lie on your behalf Rex. I also
never confirmed any story. You are so full of shit dude, I can’t even begin to
express how much of a liar you are. And you sir, are a liar!
I also did not demand anybody
take down anything. I merely offered a truce. You are some piece of work Rex.
No wonder your fan base is so small. Everyone knows you’re a liar. (And a
bully) And the bookshelves that my books were placed under after the attack
were not done so by readers, but by bullies. Big difference because bullies
don’t read. I also see you failed to mention the libelous words posted about me
and the threats made by your friends. And the fact that these so called readers
rated and reviewed my book without reading it and even in their reviews, libel
me left and right with vulgarity. Oh yeah, I see you left that stuff out.
My story does affect all
authors. It’s what can happen to them if they get targeted by the Goodreads
bullies. But I say, no author should fear these people or you, Rex. People
should stand up to you and your bully friends. And your “fake” reporting of
events. You are a laughing stalk Rex, and you probably always will be. But the
next time you want to do a real story on someone, you might want to get both
sides of it. Otherwise, you’re just a bully adding to the pile.
Speaking of adding to
the pile, here is Young Adult Novel Reader adding on to it.
She uses me as a primary
reference to authors being “unprofessional” just because I got swindled by some
reviewers and stalked by an immature girl. I guess if being honest and outraged
over people stealing from you and breaking promises - that’s being
unprofessional. Forget about the people who are stealing and breaking promises,
that is okay I guess. Good to know this person’s idea of professionalism. Here
is a news flash - authors aren’t ruining the book reviewer business, bad book
reviewers are ruining it. Or should I say, irresponsible book reviewers and
bloggers? And like the rest, could she just be trying to get some attention
with her irresponsible post? Check out her followers list and you decide.
Now, let’s take a look at
those comments on page eight of Lucy’s “stalker” story, shall we? We will start
with Jude talking about me stalking her - of course she fails to mention that
time when SHE befriended my friend and asked her to not say anything about it
to me and sweet talking my friend, a year younger than Jude, to let her onto
our share blog as an admin. Funny how she leaves that out of her comments. (And
I’m the stalker?) And of course she only did this to get back at me for
blocking her from emailing me. Let’s take a look at that comment shall we?
In this next shot, Jude talks
about that it has been 9 months after she and her friends bailed out from their
promises to me. And yes Jude, you were number one. You weren’t originally going
to be on the list but after you sent your friends after me, and they gathered
up their friends and so on and so on, I decided you earned it to be on that
list. But remember Jude, the only reason I posted that list was to get back at
you for sneaking on my shared blog through my friend and co-blogger. Remember
that? Remember when you did that? Of course you do, but again, in this next
shot, you somehow fail to mention this.
Now, here is Jude admitting
the truth. That she HAD a crush on me. Check it out.
Now here she is later using
sarcasm - contradicting the very words she spoke in the previous screenshot.
See for yourself.
Also notice in the above
screenshot, in true bully fashion, how she accuses me of being “Jennifer”
without any evidence to support this claim. This is how these bullies operate.
They say things that aren’t true and that they themselves can’t prove, but say
them anyway just to spread the lie. You know, to plant that seed.
I just want to take a little
timeout here to try and understand something - Jude is an 18 year old adult and
she is still having “crushes”? And because of this crush (like a 13 year old
girl would have), she loves my book, wants to review it on her blog and give me
an interview - then when the crush is over, my book is no longer good? I don’t
get my interview? Or book review? And all of her friends who came to me with
their offer, back out too? And I’m suppose to believe that this is
co-incidence? Meanwhile, I am just being
/ trying to be her friend yet Rex (of the Rex Files - remember him?) says that
I am “courting” her and in his much thorough report about me (and talking to
Jude) her “crush” never came up? Nor her successful attempt of stalking me on
my shared blog after befriending my friend in secret? Really? And I am the
stalker?
So far, the proof points in a
different direction, doesn’t it? Then to top it all off, Jude makes a sarcastic
remark about her “crush” for me as if to insinuate that there was never really
a crush to begin with, completely back-stepping her previous comment when she
stated she had a crush on me. Well, it was obvious she had a crush on me, but
this is why I insisted in the beginning that we just be friends. I wasn’t
trying to “court” her, as Rex calls it. Trust me on this, there were other
“friends” of mine that I would have “courted” who are better looking than her
and have much nicer bodies too. But I never “courted” anyone. And I never have
nor ever would court an underage girl, no matter how close her birthday is to
18. Only when you reach 18 would I even consider courting anyone. And even then,
I doubt I would because I don’t need to meet a GF online. But even if I were,
she would have to be at least18 period. And even then, just friends unless I am
in the area and they want to meet. Then we could start talking about courting.
Did I have fond feelings for
Jude at the time? Yes! I had very deep feelings for her at that time. Most of
it out of sorrow because of her cutting and bad relationship with her father
and her threats via email at me of suicide. That was very disturbing, and
because of that, I did have strong feelings for her. But even after I revealed
myself to her and explained that picture, funny how her crush still didn’t go
away for a few more months. And funny she would still stalk me several months
later on my shared blog. Maybe she is jealous of my friendship with my friend. Who
knows?
And here is a shot of a
comment made by some girl called “Alisha-Dear Constant Reader” who seems to be
worried about Ira and mine friendship. And Kara sharing the same sentiments.
Not to worry Alisha or Kara, my friend and I are doing just fine with our friendship. In fact, the friendship I have with her is the one I thought I would have with Jude. However, unlike Jude, my friend doesn’t have daddy issues, or cutting issues, nor does she go around sleeping with guys twice her age. She is very stable in her life for the most part, and is far from being a basket-case. Simply put, my friend isn’t a psychotic bully with bully friends.
Then in this next shot, we have Archer, who likes to bully 13 year old girls. He is talking like he knows something when in truth, as you’ll see by his remark, he knows nothing. Like the rest of the bullies, he is as clueless as clueless can be. He thinks I complained about a bad or negative review. And that simply wasn’t the case. Check it out.
Then there is this comment by Jude, actually admitting she refused to review my book. But Jude, you’re wrong, I didn’t post “The List” because you backed out of your promise like a 12 year old kid, nor did I post it because your friends backed out too – I posted it because you “stalked” me on my own blog and you manipulated a 17 year old girl to do it. You used my friend to try and get to me. That was your mistake! Your choice! And your own doing! That was the action you did which propelled me to post “The List”. The fact that you and your friends “stole” from me is just that, a fact, and even if I didn’t want a reason other than that, I have every right in the world to let other authors know about what happened to me. And you manipulated my friend to get to me just like you manipulated an email which you and I both know was taken out of context. I called your bluff on a threat of suicide just because I told you I was going to block you from emailing me because I had enough of your crazy ways.
And in this next shot, we
have Sandra mentioning about this “alleged” crush that Jude had for me. We
already seen the shot in which Jude came clean on that then later, mentioned it
sarcastically and now, so does Sandra. Well Sandra, I think we can put that
little lie to rest, Jude did have a crush on me. Her own words, not mine. And
just like Alicia Silverstone in the movie, “The Crush”, she stalked me
religiously. That’s what crushes makes people do, makes them crazy. Or at
least, brings it out. Jude was crazy from her descriptions to me about her
childhood. If they were even true at all. I know now how Jude likes to play the
“sympathy whore”.
Through it all, we see on the
day of my attack, how these people spread their gossip, lies and hate all
around. How they worked together with these lies to get me banned because, and
this is important, they (being the members of the hate group “Badly Behaving
Authors” on goodreads and Amazon Forum Boards) are the judges, jury and
executioners of authors that they deem to be “badly behaving”. Who do they
think they are? The Justice League?
Anyhow, I think we dispelled
a lot of rumors and exposed some lies that Jude and her bully friends spread
around like applesauce.
I’m Carroll Bryant …. And
this is The Looking Glass.
Things we learned today:
* Jude did indeed show off some
emails that I supposedly written to her
* These emails did cause quite
a stir and resulted in my being attacked
* Those emails were taken out
of context (just as Jude planned)
* Jude is friends with the
bullies
* Jude admits she “had” a crush
on me
* Jude later back-tracked and
sarcastically mentioned “she had a crush on me”
* Sandra must have missed
Jude’s confession about the crush because she “sarcastically” mentions it as
well
* Archer thinks it’s about me
complaining about negative reviews (which is wrong)
* Alisha and Kara are concerned
about my friend
* My friend and I have a great and
wonderful friendship
* My friend is not a psychotic nut with issues
* My friend isn’t a stalker
* My friend doesn’t have any friends
who are bullies
* Jude could be jealous of mine
and my friends friendship
* The bullies still say a lot but
have nothing to show that supports their claims
* The Rex Files is WRONG! And a laughing stock of a blog
Rex Jameson is a LIAR and a BULLY
* The Rex Files is WRONG! And a laughing stock of a blog
Rex Jameson is a LIAR and a BULLY
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